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today is October 20th.

its my 42 months anniversary with Nazri. I kept thinking why i choose him over someone else. It is a ridiculous question but yes, it true. Why him? What is so special about him. We're been in a same school since form 1 until form 5, we're been in a same class for a year. we're live just in a distance, we don't have any similarity and not to confirm he is not my type! Actually, i didn't choose him, fate does. 

42 months with golden memories and silver tears. too many places, too many pictures, too many laugh and tear that we've been through. 

i still remember, the day that we both really hungry and we don't have money in our pocket or bank. but you always told me, " its ok baby. everything will be alright, trust me" and you did. at the end you will bring me some money or food. the best thing about you is, you rather let me eat and left you with empty stomach. its not about food or money, its about you always put me on top, like your first priority. 

I never regret knowing you. since we're in relationship, you never scold me, yell at me, or piss me off. I've tried many times to make you angry, jealous or even close to make hate by my action, but your patience is very high. since no man can keep me that long. but you did.

From Sepang to Batu Rakit. Long distance is not easy for me. everything is mess up. you used to help me with everything but now, i do everything alone. its very hard. even though you have a bundle of money in your pocket, but still ... money cant buy you happiness. without you here, i feel lost, i feel alone. nobody understand me like you do. nobody know me better like you do. everyday, i put mask on face, so that people wouldn't know. i know, some people said that I'm blind in love. but they never in my shoes. they never know that im here, struggle to death. living a life without you.

Nazri, thank you for supporting me. support our empire, our business. we started our business with nothing. without your help, i'm not who i am now. you are the best. the best friend I've ever had, the best boyfriend, the best of everything. im appreciate every moment that we have now and ever. 

happy 42 months anniversary, love