Different People Different Story

4 letter words, L O V E

from : Dear JOhn

One Thing That I Will Never Forget

i miss F-03-10

the number is refer to my room at Miat.

did you know, im staying in that room since the first day i went to miat.

its been three years i lived in the same room.

my life had started in that room

i laugh, i smile, i cried, i suffer, i moody, sulky, in love, beloved, hatred ..

from fatty turns to skinny and back to basic back

from short to long hair and back to basic back

from heartless to a sweet lover and now im just a girl not yet a women

from a girl who really appreciate friends to a girl who doesnt know what is the meaning of friendship, she doesnt care anymore

so many things happened in that room.

this is the last semester

after this six months, i'll never see that room again

Sayonara F-03-10.

Take Me As I Am, Or Watch Me As I Go.

i slept at 05:00 am and awake at 09:00am. my phone is ringing and keep ringing. who the heck is calling me such an early in the morning? it is my Aunt. she said my perfume already arrived and she want my home address immediately. im so teruja!!! lets see if i can let go my Nina Ricci. i wonder can this Paco Rabanne bet my Nina Ricci? because Nina Ricci stick with me almost one year and half.

today's activities. i went to the cyber cafe to print out miat's invoice. then i went to CIMB bank to pay the fees. and bank in some money to my Aunt. it such an easy job but why so many people in the bank today? i hate queuing especially when so many people around me. almost forgotten, i went there with papaya. then we went to his house. i saw his mother. the word saw means i didnt meet yet. there is no point to meet anyone's parents / family. because too early to say anything or maybe im just scare. enough! then we went to the beach with some friends. around 07:00 pm, he sending me home. i can see in his eyes that he kinda nervous due to the last night incident. but after he saw mummy smiling at him, my papaya turns to normal back. he's really funny. dengan mummy pun nak takot. haha!

Our Forever Go Together

finally he is back home. im lying if i say im not miss him..

i do miss you and now you got skype acc so i miss you no more..

Life is the most spectacular show on the earth

hey best friends,

let's having some delicious ice cream when we meet

and take pictures

because my camera is craving of your photo

My Mind's Dirt And It Don't Need Cleaning

Boy I think about it every night and day
I'm addicted wanna jump inside your love
I wouldn't wanna have it any other way
I'm addicted and I just can't get enough

Im The Best

To realize the value of ONE HOUR

i feel normal not having a facebook. so i dont need to know what you were doing, where were you and anything about you people. you is refer to friends.dont misunderstanding okay. im comfortable with my life now. more relaxing. so i can enjoy the movies as much as i want without any distraction. yeahh! nobody doesnt know what im into now, where am i or how much i struggle with my life. sounds like im so pathetic. my life is fun as always, situation just make me suck like a homeless bitch.

Super Breakfast

see this picture make me more hungry. mummy ask me to puasa for two days, today & tomorrow because of 27 Rejab (isra' mikraj). we're having our sahur with rice plus lauk-lauk yang sangat sedap. i think im gonna start eating rice back because of mummy. this year i will celebrate fasting month in miat, i dont know whether there will be next year for us. so i make this two days fasting to recover the up coming puasa.

i just back from meting my long-loss-friend, Yaya. i never mention about her in my blog because she's been so sombong with me.i dont know why =.=! just kidding. we're hangout at Mc'donalds while share some juicy stories about our life. she never change at all. still my old Yaya. give up is not in her dictionary especially on love. although many times she got a broken heart but she still looking for his prince charming. pretty cool, uh?i hope she got into UPM so that we can hangout always. i miss you, Y .

... papaya is here, in KB.do i look happy? of course im happy.

If You Know Anything About Me

Romance In The rain

lately im addicted to this korean series, Lie To Me. why i watch this movie? 1. the heroin dress up seriously my type 2. the hero also handsome but his voice a bit funny 3. the story is really good, love happen unexpected 4. about friendship, betray,when friend turns to foe. i recommended you guys watch this. click Here to join me club. hehe

Q U O T E

Pray to Allah SWT today because yesterday has gone and tomorrow may never come.

A Love That Only Moms And Daughters Know.

yesterday i had a great dinner with mummy

today i really enjoy my meal with mummy at New Pacific Hotel

and what about tomorrow ?

can still be with her again? eating together without any distraction..

this is not about foods, this is all about relationship between mother/daughter.

i wish i just be a good daughter to her.

i wish im the only one she's looking for when she got sick.

i wish im the only person who can make she smile and laugh.

i wish im the only one who can bring happiness to her

i wish God forgive me for all the bad things i did to her

i wish i can be like her

i love you, mummy :)

Aja Aja Fight!

Best Friend, No Doubt!

they are there to be obnoxious with you

they know how to cheer you up

they listen to your stupid stories

and they know how to bring you down

they know when you like someone

or when you need to rebuild your self esteem

sometimes they can be so annoying

or just simply embarrassing

but they will be always there for you, forever.

Facebook Under Construction

i just deactive my facebook.

you know where you can find me.

love you

Lo.. Lo.. Lo.. Loser

i dont know. i've tried really hard but it doesnt work out. some people just hurt my feeling with their words. and i dont wanna do this ............. anymore!

Follow Your Heart But Be Quiet For A While First

we're in the same room. you,me and her. but i sleep on the different mattress, you both sleep on the same mattress. i just saw you guys sleeping while im all alone. i saw you cuddle and wrap your arms around her tightly while no one holding me. i smile because im not envy at all. my heart already fixed. suddenly that girl awake. she come to me closely and seek for forgiveness. i muse straight to her eyes.

...... and im awake. whats up with the dream?she comes into my dream and it freak me out!i realize something. grunge wont solve anything and it make your life more miserable. no peace at all. 9months already past, i just let by gone be by gone. hey my lovers and some haters, friends and foes, girls and boys ... im sorry for everything i've done. my bad-ass behavior, bad-mouth, my ignorance, my silly altitude , my shitty two faces (if i do) or anything that harm you. i deeply sorry. i know sorry wont fix anything, it doesnt mean im right or wrong. it doesnt mean im nice or nasty because everyone makes mistakes. what we have to do is, learn from our mistake. forgive the people who hurt you , apologize to the people who you hurt, forget about them and move on.

From KB With Love

dear my sayangness,

i just saw your new photo on fb. it seem like you had a great day with abe min. thank God :) but whats up with the eyes beg? it seems like you cried a lot. i feel so unhappy when i see the picture. hey love, please be strong. i will help you anything or anytime. i really do. you know how much i love you, we're sisters right? cant wait to see you soon. i miss you. xoxo

You Are My Nightmare

a day without ayah is sucks. i hate to see mummy doing ayah's job. woke up early in the morning, sending both of the kids and back home and get ready to work and back home on lunch hour to pick up the kids. what a tiring day for mummy. if only i can drive.. hmm! seeing as ll my activities throughout these past few days didnt really include much, other than dancing class and spent time with families. since im in kb, camera still in the beg.i didnt use it. sorry honey. so, new semester starts at the middle of July. and i am slightly nervous at the thought of meeting new people. opss, i mean new roommate. i hope she is just nice like the previous one. i hope she is cool as well.

i wonder what goes on with both of us? we're pretending like nothing had happened but it does hurt. but im done being all angry and such. God, im gonna miss you but it is getting easier i cant seem to remember our memories anymore. i seem to be forgetting more and more of it, day by day.

Messy Head

♥ ..

: Emma Watson

Her Story, Her Life.

Skinny Bitch

♥ ..

: Dakota Fanning /The Style
last night i watched , The Runaways. she play the roll of Marie Curie and its was awesome. i can say i have a small obsession with her. what is there not to like? she is an accomplished actress already at 16 years old. since she is only 16 she does dress appropriately for her age. jeans and flips flops, sweater and sneakers. she also knows how to dress on the red carpet. love you DF :)

True Story Of A Bulimic

My weight didn't start getting bad until my senior year in high school. I was overeating and it got out of control. I started to purge. I knew it was bad, but I figured one time wouldn't hurt. Well, one time grew into two, then three, then four, and so on. I wanted to stop but I wanted to be thin, more.

Being bulimic didn't make me any thinner but it allowed me to continue to overeat and maintain my weight. I still wasn't happy with myself. I was depressed all the time, avoided hanging out with my friends, and became this person that wasn't me anymore.

I said, enough is enough. When I go to college, things will be different, and it was. My first semester of college was the best time of my life. I lost 35 lbs by Thanksgiving break. The compliments were amazing, boys were checking me out again, and I felt awesome about myself.

It felt even more amazing because I put the weight off in a healthy way. I ate right and I exercised. But unfortunately, when I came home for Thanksgiving break, everything changed. I began to over eat again and my eating disorder resurfaced.

By Christmas, I had gained all my weight back. My mother even confronted me about having an eating disorder. All the work that I had put into it over the semester was gone in just a few weeks. And for what, to taste food? It sounds ridiculous. I still haven't lost the weight. that is all, I wish I had supportive words of wisdom but I am still going through the struggle.

source : google

A single text can change my mood at any moment.

we're okay now

and

im soo

happyhappyhappy

and i feel good, yeahhh!!!!!

right Queen B ?

from : Gossip Girl

Through My Veins

checking on the calender today, eleven days to go then i'll leave KB. im suppose to go to KL on 7th or 8th July but for some reason i go early. cant wait to see my girl friend!! why? because she said she is fatter than before and keep saying that she is gemuk than me. it is true?? we will see.. *Evil Laugh*. i swear to God that i really miss her. miss the sound effect and i miss the way she kutuk makcik gemuk. haha.

i already miss mummy even though im not even leave yet. im not kidding. to be loved, we need to love people around us. as the result, everybody is happy and enjoy the life that God give to us. *syukursyukur*

today is the last day of my ganti puasa. this morning i went to dancing class then i jog for i dont know how far im running. then Daniel ask me to made him instant noodle.meggi! my favourite. this is so challenging! its been a month and half i didnt cook or eat meggi. i miss you meggi but you're my enemy. keep away from me okay, ini adalah amaran bahaya.! i got another class by 5.30 pm till 7.00 p.m.

seems like im make myself so busy. take care lovers.

From Daughter To Her Mama

sesungguhnya ujian Allah swt itu tidak akan membebani hambaNya kerana ujian yang diberikanNya itu bersesuaian dengan kemampuan setiap hambaNya. Allah swt Maha Mengetahui bahawa ujian yang kau hadapi sekarang ini adalah ujian yang mampu kau hadapi.

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون اللهم آجرني في مصيبتي واخلف لي خيراً منها

Sesungguhnya kami adalah kepunyaan Allah dan kepada Allah jualah kami kembali. Ya Allah, berikanlah padaku ganjaran pada apa yang menimpaku dan gantikanlah buatku kebaikan daripadanya.

Ya Tuhan, berkatilah saudara-saudaraku yg sedang mengalami kesulitan. Beri mereka kekuatan agar mampu melaluinya. sesungguhnya dia seperti ibu-ku dan aku seperti anak-nya. panjangkan lah umur dia Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku. hanya padamu aku memohon dan padamu juga aku meminta. permudahkan lah segala urusannya. amin .