where is my key of happiness?

my key is gone !

give it back.i want it back.who took it? heyy! who took it? hmmph.i want it back people.i can't stand it.i feel so empty,i feel practically see through.i dont like this feeling.it wont go away.someone give me a hug.someone kiss me.someone treat me well.someone make me smile.someone make me feel good enough.GOD! my heart's no longer with me. i didnt give it away.so who stole it?im begging you people.im tired of looking for it.lately,my dreams are so freaky. i've had one really long and weird dream.they're not the same ones but they seem to have the same concept.

i really really dont want to fall for anybody right now.it'll just hurt.but so many things are getting in the way.what if my heart comes back and i fall,hard?what do i do then?im falling over the edge trying not to break down. maybe i can love but i'll hate myself.im not the ideal person to love.im cranky,i have terrible mood swings and i can be terribly mean for no reason and thats me.