Never Lose HOPE

keep your friends close

and leave your enemy behind... 

i though you were my friend

i really think so but then

im pretty sure that 

between us, 

there no such thing 

as a word as 

FRIENDSHIP

we're just using each other

just like

friend with benefit

am i right?

im so over it now

peace no War love :)

I had supernatural powers to be unveiled some day.

A smile doesn’t define happiness

staying at my cousin's crib so hilarious. from the time you opened your eyes till the time you closed your eyes, they are freaking crazy. they treat me like im at their age. singing before sleeping and keep talking until all of them shut down! i rarely stay at this house for a long time, i dont know why. 

Your playing small does not serve the world

just now im checking my hotlink account and guess what my sim card were registered with someone else name.    a guy and im not familiar with his name. then im checking my active10 list. whoaa... 1st number is Ayah. then... the next next next number is anonymous. they weren't in my contact anymore. maybe some of them still my friend but the rest is dead. i guess :)

You know you have made me blind

you stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time 
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy you're mine
Just tell me you love me too 

by M2M - pretty boy

you had me at hello

 we're suppose leaving at 1pm but my brother had things to settle down so we leave at 3pm. my garfield drive my brother's car and he drive his friend's car. 9hours together was awesome.from KB to KL. i guess it was the best moment i had.

goodbye day

P is for packing!

bye KB, hello sepang

tattoo star is shining

Rooney Mara is super hot !

three things that cross my mind a lot

we spent almost all weekend together. wishing we could stay together. you're wake up and having some breakfast that i made for you. i'd kiss you all over your face over and over again just to keep you awake so you stay up and talk to me.

we seem so strong now and i thank God for that, i finally have someone who treats me the way you do but my thoughts keep bringing me forward to the day where i will have to leave you alone. i guess i am busy enough with my life and i'll try make it work. but we both know we won't be able to make it. so i'll pray that when i come back home, you'll be waiting for me. because i know i would do the same for you.

happy 8 months, Garfield. how i wish 8 doesn't exist because i hate the number 8. some people didn't think we would make it, me either. but you're made me the happiest i've ever been in a while. just getting a text from you makes me smile like the world's biggest idiot.

We all have a friend with a retarded laugh.

i love the poster in the room.

i guess it is how you express yourself.

Hilary Duff was all over my room. 

when i was kid, i really admired her.especially when you watch Lizzie McGuire.

she is so adorable, funky and cute.

Geram!

teaching my brother mathematics wasn't as easy as teacher used to teach me. 

sakit hati ada lah!

Adorable Shoes to Wear

hey love, i just bought another Birkenstock. new shoes for new semester.yey! im not gonna wear the heavy safety shoes. last time i wore it was when im on job training. okay back to the subject, this is not the new one just second hand. and the price much much more cheaper than the new one. it just RM90 but still can negotiate the price. well, there are too many Birkenstock in KB. too many to choose.   

Don’t criticize what you can’t understand

i will stare at you

Ten things you wanna say to ten different people.

1. i wish i could show you how much i really do love you. im so happy you came into my life. i feel like a  complete insane when im with you. since then i know you're my man. i really love you and it freaks me the hell out but yeah, i want to end up with you.
2. both of you are my best friends . i cant possibly imagine not having you around. now that we're kinda busy-ing with our own life but we still have skype and BFF's group and blog. thank you for being a true friend to me.
3. i am sorry. i wish i can tell in direct but im not strong enough. you're the only ****** that i have. i miss the older time. we're having so much fun together until you met somebody and ignore me. im not gonna say anything about that, i just miss you. when im with you, i feel like a kid, a baby to you. you teach me the real world, how to survive in this cruel world. thanks for that. 
4. dont you know im not your ghost anymore? because now, im actually happy, even in my loneliest moments, im happy. i hope you never treat anybody else the way you treated me. maybe it was karma what you did to me but no one else deserve it from you. especially if they truly love you.
5. you are forgiven but every-time i saw you. its hurt me much. i dont know if you been real or fake in front of me. i try myself to please you, but its not working at all. sorry.
6.  i used to like you. one time you're gone and now you're back. should i be happy? 
7. you're such a good friend to me. how you treat me, i really appreciate that.. but dont you know i hate people controlling me? please dont because i love our friendship.
8. do you know that you're my best buddy in Miat? you were there when im in trouble. and you such a google to me. you know lot of stuff than i do. i love you mate :)
9. even though you never said you loves me but deep inside you i know you.. im always be your little girl. 
10. im trying to be a good daughter to you. i always do.

Song For You

"To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same
as I do
is a three fold utopian dream
you do something to me
that I can't explain
so would i be out of line
I if I said
I miss you"

- Incubus

A Note To Friends

i feel the same thing like you do. i miss both of you. 

one is busying with the killer exams 

another one is busying in the kitchen.

and me..

so exciting with the new life and new year

i love you 

most precious in the world

the smell of the baby, cuddle them,touching their soft skin

i want a baby.

seriously!

find beautiful place to get lost

the one that got away

cupcakes are just beautiful muffins

Kota Bharu. safety arrived along with my brother and him. im so tired even though im not driving. before i shoot to KB, my friend and i went to KLCC. the original plan was, we suppose go to Jalan TAR since its heavily raining and the train delayed, plan changed. she was so excited when i showed her the town. KL is so full of people, shopping complex, quite a nice place to visit. actually she is from Dubai. been here almost 6 months but didn't go anywhere. nobody wanna ask her out, dont ask me idk why either. she is Miss M's classmate. back to the story, today's outing was not good enough because im going back to my hometown, at the same time i wanna show her around. bad timing, poor you little girl.  i promise.. next time i'll make sure you and i will having a blast together. and guess what, we gonna throw a party on February. its her birthday. she ask me to help her. well, i'll be honor.


did you know that Kate Spade in KLCC? whoaa... im so lame. KLCC totally different now. so many shop are opened like Charles and Keith, Versace jeans and hmm, i dont remember. even though i cant afford to buy the beg of KS, but im so excited!! KS in KL. yeyy! how about  ASOS? or H&M ? or TOM's ? bring it on !!

guess who?

with a cute face and good personality, who is she?

Cristina Suzanne Stockstill

i found out this girl in the malay drama, Bicara Hati.

she is more cuter with the short hair. 

kan kan kan?

Love Personally and Globally

**skirt**

maybe this is love after all

i've fallen in love. at least i feel like so. he gives me no heart attacks. no butterflies when we meet. but i long for every hug, for every touch, for every do you need a hand? he does not have eyes like the sky, nor thick curly hair to run one's fingers through. his breath is actually quite bad especially when he smoking. i don't know if i'm in love, because i can see his flaws. i believe i might not be, because i don't lay awake in bed night after night. i've never loved anybody because of how they treated me but then again i've never loved anyone the way i love him.

yet it feels so good when he leans in closely, closely, when i'm sad. oh and the way he says my name. and it feels so good being the first one he calls when he needs help.as i grope for the light switch he says nevermind and puts a warm hand on my back, he'd rather guide me through the dark than let me walk alone in the yellow light. it may be quiet but in our heads we talk, and a hand on a back easily becomes an arm around a waist. i feel safe with him, and being close to him is what i always find myself pursuing.

we found each other instantly, cookie. we should probably stick around.
maybe this is love after all.

happy anniversary love ♥

Or Maybe Not

when im taking to you

i will if you will

so damn emotional

another rough day today. woke up early in the morning and having breakfast with my housemate. yes. they all cooking while im sleeping cover with my blanket. im not a morning person.sorry mate. well, i went to meet my lecturer for the third time in this week. she ask me to do practical instead of do the quizzes. you need to struggle to get pass. so, i did as she told. plus she give me some assignment. submitted before 10am tomorrow. i will do whatever she wanted me to do as long as i can register for the degree. it really stressed me out, when you saw the others do assignment while you still fighting for the last semester paper. im a week behind. hmmmmm ~~~~

going back to Kb tomorrow with my brother. hopefully, i can join the class next week. aminn :)

K A R M A