Massage In The Bottle

l'm sorry l haven 't talked to you in so long.

l feel l've been lost...

...no bearings, no compass.

l kept crashing into things, a little crazy, l guess.

l've never been lost before.

You were my true north.

l could always steer for home when you were my home.

Forgive me for being so angry when you left.

l still think some mistake's been made...

...and l'm waiting for God to take it back.

But l'm doing better now.

The work helps me.

Most of all, you help me.

You came into my dream last night with that smile...

... that always held me like a lover...

...rocked me like a child.

All l remember from the dream...

...is a feeling of peace.

l woke up with that feeling...

...and tried to keep it alive as long as l could.

l'm writing to tell you that l'm on a journey toward that peace.

And to tell you l'm sorry about so many things.

l'm sorry l didn 't take better care of you...

...so you never spent a minute being cold or scared or sick. ''

''I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words. . .

. . .to teII you what I was feeIing.

I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door.

I fixed it now.

I'm sorry I ever fought with you.

I'm sorry I didn't apoIogize more.

I was too proud.

I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compIiments. . .

. . .on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair.

I'm sorry I didn't hoId on to you with so much strength. . .

. . .that even God couIdn't puII you away. ''

all my love,A

F word for you

"Don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself… know what you want.
Ingrid Magnussen (Michelle Pfeiffer) in White Oleander

let by gone be by gone

goodnight lovers.

morning glory

And screaming
Are we we are, are we we are the waiting
And screaming
Are we we are, are we we are the waiting

green day - waiting.

from gambang to shah alam, from shah alam to kota bharu.thats what life is.keep moving from time to time.*happyface*i got the pictures..i..i... got the pictures!

so,i dont have to wasting my time on anything else but,focus on editing picture.haha.i think im gonna delete some 'rubbish' in my laptop and hardisc.describe rubbish? rubbish is unwanted or unusable materials.the pictures,the videos,the songs and so on..i will delete them!

i just back from somewhere.secret place.i meet this women.she is 86years old but she still in a good condition(sihat la babe).i dont know her name but i called her,mak.i listen to her story.about her life,about her kids,about her grandchild. i really want to hug her.she is so cute but im scare she will think im insane.haha.then,she hold my hand and told me this,

"kalau anak rasa susah hati,mintak lah dengan DIA.mintak lah dengan DIA.jangan lupa DIA.cari sedikit masa untuk DIA.sesungguhnya tiada siapa yang dapat memberikannya melainkan DIA,"

i smile to her and i wonder why did she told me this?

♥ the dream

the place seems familiar to her.ohh this is where she used to hang out,having sleepover and so many things with her lover,her friends.the room is cold. she sits up looking for the comforter.then she heard people laugh outside the room.she lurk from the door.

girl 1 : i never thought that girl is so stupid.

girl 2 : me neither.i like you.

girl 1 : really?how bout her?

girl 2 : she just nothing to me.we are over.the end.

she just listen the conversation between her lover and her friend.they berasmaradana with the evil laugh.her heart stop beating.her hands and legs is cold to death.tears drop on her face.then

.....

i wake up to the sound of my phone.picking it up,S sounded frustrated on the other end.i was still a little hazy because had a stupid nightmare.what was im thinking?they didn't even thinking of me why would i?see, my friend did this dumbass thing of going behind my back.oh well,i forgave her but fuck,what she did really hurt.of course i've blogged about this before.but i guess you could say that i was being emo and depressed. but now i finally feel so much better and thinking back,i was actually quite proud of myself.i was seriously hurt, but i kept it together. i put the phone down and went back to sleep.sorry S,i'll call you back okay.

And I'd Give Up Forever To Touch You

bila engkau memandang segalanya dari TUHAN-mu,

yang menciptakan segalanya,

yang menimpakan ujian,

yang menjadikan sakit hatimu,

yang membuat keinginanmu terhalang,

serta menyusahkan hidupmu,

pasti akan damailah hatimu,

kerana masakan ALLAH sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya

untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia,

bukan kerana ALLAH tidak tahu derita hidupmu,

retaknya hatimu,

tapi mungkin itulah yang DIA mahu.

kerana DIA tahu

hati yang sebeginilah yang lebih lunak,

mudah untuk dekat dan akrab dengan-NYA.

I'm not somebody special, but I m just one of the GOD's limited editions!

im afraid, am i doing something wrong? i keep wondering what is going on but i dont get it i just cant get rid of this feeling that seems to grip my very core. my heart races and all i can see are faces. i hate this, why cant i just make up my damned mind.

so hello my lovelies,how has you week been?mine's been pretty good so far.i dont seem to mind anything anymore.i've been single for 2weeks.longer than i thought i would be but i like it.i dont have to bother with anybody else's feelings.im just gonna stick to my sayang-ness friends and family for now. so much simpler,no?

what i love about this week is,i lepak-ing with Q since he's the only one left in Kb.. and somebody told him about me,about my jiwa kacau.siap lah, awak memang nak kena dengan saya! i play bowling with apft's crew, tomorrow me going to rantau panjang with the technicians.its kinda cool because i never when there with friends, and and and the part of exciting is,one of the cadet ask me for a date!

i used to like you.dont worry, im over it.

the reason - Hoobastank

the ART of TALKING to anyone

: Fancy Nail Art

i think the outfit look more stylish with a funky manicure.there are so many fun pattern to try out.so how about adding some art to your nail?will you try it?

i would love to try all these!

Everybody knows i've got the MAGIC in me

for two years you basically my 24/7.we had a lot of fun when we were together.i will never forget.i will always remember.the laughs that we shared,the dreams that we had...but those dream change and they left me sad.when just thinking of you ,my knees grew weak.my heart swollen .when you're hands were mine,i just happy.now my world is upside down.then i realize that you dont hold my hand anymore.the hand that used to protect my worries and stop my fear.the hands that calm me down when i had a nightmare.the hands that wiped away my tears. every time my phone were ringing,i thought it was you.everything that i do remain me of you.your face,your habit.your favorite things.your words.your song.your smile.your everything.that makes me sick to my stomach.sick to the death.it's hurt.everything is sucks.i know i must face the truth.i hate this.i want to hate you but all that will cause pain to me..only God knows how this is effecting me.and silly me!

: Irina Lazareanu / Boyish Style

this is perfect!

I just love Irina Lazareanu's unique, quirky, rocker chic meets effortless chic style!! Whether she is dressed casually in jeans and a tee or dressed up in a beautiful couture dress, Irina holds a rare beauty. She looks great with her trademark chunky blunt fringe.I must say Irina Lazareanu has a different type of style that I cant describe and that's why I love her. She goes in with my other style icons!

*new hair

eat.love.pray

goodnight lovers.

you know you love me :)

GIRL,you have no faith in medicine.

lately ,there have been things that have brought my spirit down.GOD,im so angry.i just want to scream my lungs out.i want to throw things.i want to break things.how could she do that?how could they do that?what the fuck i do to deserve all this?was i that bad of a girlfriend?she made me cry,AGAIN!

every night,right before i go to sleep, i'll pray.asking Allah for forgiveness and thanking HIM and hoping the next day will be better than today.it is very calming when you know there's always something watching over you.i make mistakes like every other human being but i take comfort in the fact that Allah is there.

im at the point in life where i haven't thought everything through.i'm still figuring everything out. and having something true always makes it easier..and i don't think the sweet revenge is working.*white flag*

r i g h t ?

everything is going to be okay.

everything is going to be okay.

everything is going to be okay.

everything is going to be okay.

everything is going to be okay.

Love can make you happy but often times it hurts.

one word to describe that.its HURT!

should I hate you because you hurt me?or should I love you because you made me feel special?now I believe it when people say love is blind cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.you said you didn't want to see me get hurt,so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?You hurt me more than I deserve,how can you be so cruel?I love you more than you deserve,why am I such a fool?thanks for hurting me,

♥ ..

: Random / the Accessories
im not into cloth so much but i do love the accessories.

life smile to me and i smile back to you

for the interview :)

she walk in when others walk out

i've being in love and had a heart broken.get some new friends and losing them.this 2 weeks really tough.i dont know how to handle with the heart.i dont know how to handle with the life.there is no love between us?out of sudden,love is gone.

why me? im not strong enough.i just human.i need someone by my side... then i realize,im not alone,i still have my love.my antidote.my icecream.my candy.my everything.i miss them.i feel so calm when i see ada's face.skyp-ing with teeq and laugh till *gelepar* like we used to.it make me really happy.totally gay!sumpah saya rindu kamu berdua.mybe i dont know how to be a good friend to them but i wont let these two girl leaving me just like them.hold it tight okay.