​‎​Don't Pray For Life To Be Easy, Just Pray To Be Strong

i told them all . they told me to be strong and slowly i'll move on. but what if i dont want to be strong anymore? what id i just want to break down and eat shit loads of chocolate? that was what i wanted to do all day. i just wanted to crawl into a hole and only leave when the light finally shone through. but that wouldnt be me, would it?

i guess im tired of always being happy, friendly, be nice and optimistic. i might look and sound emo. but my optimism could kill you. and now what do i do? i dont want to be optimistic. i just want to be able to cry it out loud and be depressed, but im unable of such sort. im still as optimistic as hell.

i can do some of the thing i've always wanted to do. and i'll do it. i'll do it with passion and hope for the next day because that's just who i am.

but it does hurt. but im done being all angry and such. God, im gonna miss you but it getting easier because i cant seem to remember our memories anymore. i seem to be forgetting more and more of it. day by day. i just wish it didnt happen like that. i just wish it didnt hurt like this. because when i said i would've done anything for us. i meant it. i guess you didnt.

I MISS MY BESTIES SOO BADLY