Yes, I've made mistakes. life didn't come with instructions.

you wanna know why i love you? it’s because you loved me when i didn’t love myself. it’s because you held up beauty for me to see. it’s because you cared, unconditionally, just the way i was. it was because, for the first time in my life i didn’t have to work so hard at being happy. but you love someone else too, the one who used to be my bestfriend. you betrayed me. you ruin everything that we had. you ask for my forgiveness. but you’re too late this time. i gave you more than enough chances to make things right and you didn’t. i opened myself up to get cut wide open. i finally moved on. i’m happy and i don’t need you anymore. that’s something i never though i’d say. i’m sorry if i’m not ready to throw all of that away to let you back in and make me look like a fool when you fuck me over. Again. i cant put myself through that again. you cant erase the past. the way we are now, is not my fault. i didn’t cheat, lie, or push you away. you did this to yourself. i’m sorry if you cant find anyone who amounts to me, which you probably won’t, but it’s your own doing. i’m not saying this out of spite or pity or anger even. i’m saying this because i know that no girl will ever amount to what i was for you, what you were for me. no girl will ever connect and feel for you the way i did. i really hope you find happiness in the decisions you made, i would never have chosen this for us. but I also cant fix what you created, and i don’t want to anymore.