It Sucks When A Person Becomes My Weakness.

day eight

Eight Fears.

i hate this extremely strong fear of not being to live my life the way i want to. ever since i was younger, i hate it when somebody told me how my life should and would be. im scared that in the future i'll be just another robot in this consumer driven galaxy and i scare myself with this thought everyday.

im afraid of rejection. no matter in love or in friendship or assignment or anything. i think im the person who is kinda hard to ask for help, so it is a big deal for me when people wont help me. seriously.

two insect that i fear the most, cockroach and spider.

im a Achluophobia, it is a fear of darkness. i cant sleep alone when all the lamp is close. i've tried to sleep in a dark but then it remain me of ghost story. and i imagine that ghost is sleeping beside me and i immediately turn on the light .funny me.

i get scared, when it comes to relationship. to truly let myself be vulnerable

im afraid i'll never live up my dreams like how i've always imagined. i;m scared that everything i do in life will be so unimportant, nobody will remember who i was. i just dont wanna fail when it comes to my own life.

i scare of getting married. to be more specific, im afraid of monster in law. have you ever seen malay drama,kutub utara kutub selatan. that movie scared me to death okay.

i fear i wont ever find sombody who could handle me and my feelings.