Not everything stays forever, but there are some things you'd fight for

salam Syawal. sorry i took too long to write. been busying with Hari Raya, families and friends. i was thinking ... covered up my head. wearing hijab but i still defer. then my heart began to shame. i was covered but not perfectly. i want to change but i dont know how and where to start it.

Dr Nadiyah said "When hidayah comes, continue to grab tightly. Hold! Continue to make the changes. Maybe it will not come again"

its not as easy as saying to leave their old habit, its not easy to be a new life in practice. pain? i feel very sick. because i used to do bad things more than the good things. i know i am bad. beyond the doors of changing, some might success and vice versa. im afraid that i will return to the old road. and now im trying, still trying and will try to be a better person, slowly. dear my lovely friends, please pray for my goodness, amin :)