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The world Is Coming to The End

Oh my God ! i missed my Mr. B. haven't been uploading since how long. i'm sorry, baby. this two week im kinda busy with my final exam, which is killing me! well, two down 5 more to go. tomorrow onward is killer subjects. wanna know whats on my mind?? i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just save me wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home i just wanna go home...

Give your life to the One who already owns your breath and your moments.

we made a promise

38 days

July 1st, see you then.

Padamu Ku Memohon

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan-ku,

sesungguhnya tiada Tuhan yang dapat menolong aku melainkan Engkau (ya Allah)! Maha suci Engkau (daripada melakukan aniaya, tolongkan daku)! sesungguhnya aku adalah dari orang-orang menganiaya diri sendiri.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan-ku,

janganlah Engkau mengirakan aku salah jika aku lupa atau aku tersalah. (Ya Allah) janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada aku bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang - orang terdahulu. Ya Allah, jangan lah Engkau pikulkan kepada aku apa yang aku tidak terdaya memikulnya. dan maafkanlah kesalahan aku, serta ampunkan dosakami, dan berilah rahmat kepada aku. Engkaulah penolong ku, Ya Allah

Prove to me that you're different. Show me that you're worth fighting for

i have a friend,

his name was him,

but i called him , papaya,

and he called her banana,

he held his head high,

smiling like a baby,

then there was she,

a friend of him,

she never cared much,

but she talk all day long,

they fooled around

and played games,

they helped each other,

then one day,

him loved she,

and she loved him,

both players,

of the same game,

now they wait and see,

last heart to break,

wins.

No one really cares if you're miserable, so why not be happy?

im back just to see my parents.

im back just to eat mummy's cooked

im back just to smell my bedroom

im back just to see the new toilet

im back just to see ayah playing Zuma in computer

im back just to have fun with family

im back and leave again

and will return back. no worries.

All the good and bad things are arranged together for a good happy ending

dear you,

they say when penguins find their mate, they stay together for the rest of their lives. will you be my penguin?will you stay forever with me? will you fill the empty space inside my heart? and i wanna be a girl that put a butterflies in your stomach. actually im afraid of being hurt again but things dont always stay the same and people dont always act the same. i will appreciate every moment because they may not happen twice, right?

with love,

me :)

What happened to you?

i was inspired by these pictures.

studs, leather jacket, boots, skinhead, ripped jeans, punk, shaved head, black color

one word

AMAZING!

Making so many plans, but for some reason they never happen

good good good Morning angels and some devil. im wake up early in the morning. helping her make a breakfast for everyone. wait a minute ... who is 'her'? she is my mummy. no kidding , im in Kb now. i told her some story and she laugh loudly. actually it's not really funny, idk why she laughing.maybe she just to excited because im coming home and i love the way she laugh.

since im in Kb, i will eat a lot. especially cooked by mummy monster. well friends, please deal with it. xoxo :)

Cause You Believe In What We Are

Cast aside

To an angry street

Criticized

For what we believe

If we hide maybe we can make it through this

Is it fair to be burned away?

Is it fair that we live this way?

Victimized for a life we didnt ask for

No truth to confirm

No lies to deny

Too hopeless to care

We're too scared to cry

You And I - T.a.t U

The Rampage of the Cliché Monster

i just finished watched this movie on youtube. this is a good movie ever, although there were a silly mistake at the end of the story. i like this movie not because she likes her, but its about friendship, family and love. and the part i love the most when Mary ask Paulie :

Paulie: Lesbian? Lesbian? Are you fucking kidding me, you think I'm a LESBIAN?
Mouse: You're a girl in love with a girl, aren't you?
Paulie: No! I'm PAULIE in love with TORI. Remember? And Tori, she is, she IS in love with me because she is mine and I am hers and neither of us are LESBIANS!

and when Paulie get mad in the class :

Paulie: Liar! Liar, Liar, Liar! You've all got your heads up your assholes because love is. It just is and nothing you can say can make it go away because it is the point of why we are here, it is the highest point and once you are up there, looking down on everyone else, you're there forever. Because if you move, right, you fall. You fall.

this story is about, Mary (Mischa Barton) is apprehensive about entering a boarding school. Her roommates Tory (Jessica Pare) and Paulie (Piper Perabo) seem friendly enough, especially with each other. Mary soon learns they are lovers and for whatever reason, they begin to feel comfortable with expressing the sexuality with mouse in the room. things change abruptly when they caught sleeping together by Tory's sister. Tory comes from a strict religious background and asserts her heterosexuality in order to shatter any rumors floating around. Paulie's reaction is the opposite. her behavior becomes increasingly erratic as she tries to reignite Tory's affections. she does not comprehend that Tory will not return them.

You're Weird, But I like You.

Its true we dont know what we have til its gone. we're too stubborn to say , 'Sorry I was wrong' and we let the most foolish things tear us apart. But now I guess it doesn't make sense anymore. I've to admit that love doesn't give me the license to own a person forever. Only a chance to enjoy someone's company for a moment.

There's always a hope beyond the pain

from : skins

A lot of problems in the world would disappear if

i had so much fun last night. i went out with a strangers, the handsome one! we're ate, we're shisha-ed, we're karaoke and we're did something crazy. although i just met him but just in a short time, we can get along. i stayed at his house. im here not trying to seduce him because he such a brother to me. he help me when im in a bad situation. sometimes i wonder why.. the one who always help me are random friend not the close one. hmm!

im save here. im happy here. good for me :)

I Am Away

i change the plan.

KB no more.

im going to somewhere else

meditation .maybe!

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Words Or No Words, Actions And More Actions

susah lah hidup kalau asyik bergantung dengan orang. kalau lah saya ada boleh buat sendiri ,sumpah saya tak mintak pertolongan sesiapa pon. ini tak, saya kena call people and ask them for help. paling sedih bila, when they ask me for help, i help them immediately but when its my turn, they give me a thousand of reasons. macam pengemis pon ada. sedih**

Never look back unless you are planning to go that way

The D-day

Love because you are loved. Smile because its contagious. Laugh because its good for the soul. Live because every day is a gift.

Remember there are many things in life that will catch your eye.

dear both of you,

i wish you guys were here with me. i wont ask for anything else, i just wanna see your smile, hear your laugh, having a night conversation with a juicy story , like we used to . did you know that , its so hard to get a best friend like you! i met a lot of people. i be friend with many kind of human being but no one can replace you guy. its not like we're understand each other but you were there when i need you the most and vise versa. we're shared anything even the small small thing because when i love someone, i cant keep secret from them. they understand my past, believes in my future and accepts me just the way i am. i miss you XD

love love,

Sekarang

Sometimes the majority only means that all the idiots are on the same side.

i just back to my room with two news, the good and the bad one. start with the good one, study leave already started and im going home for a week. but i didnt buy the bus ticket yet. and yeah home sweet home... hmm, the bad news is my name not in the hostel list for June 2011. everybody already booked the room but me??????? i hope nobody gonna booked my room. that is sucks! im off... bye, xoxo

♥ ..

Ripped Legging

i heart this ripped legging. some people say this outfit look like a b***h but i think this is cool.

Sorry Fellas, That's The Way It Goes.

i feel so happy, like we used to, woke up late in the morning. watching Ayah read the news paper while Mama cooked for the breakfast. then we went out with Sister. we're planned to go to Bowling, its fulled. well its public holiday, i get it! then we took the number for the Karaoke but we missed it. salah kedai mamak la ni! i really had fun. i feel homie and its like im in my family back. what a wonderful day.

Love will never hurt, lie, or cheat. People choose to do that.

from : skins

People Try To find The Easiest Way Out Of A Situation

i smell your breath

i slept in your arm

i kiss on your cheek

i hug you from the back side

and i felt different

ohh, no wonder la

you're not mine

...... anymore

No one can change a person, but someone can be a person's reason to change

Jealousy Is A Disease, Half The World Is ill.

Start Glancing At Your Problems And Staring At God

this is the middle of May. everything is moving so fast so suddenly.i can hardly catch my breath. this week is my last week for everything, seeing lecturer, add carry-mark or what so ever. then next two week gonna be a final exam. i have to admit, my heart does aches just thinking about the exam. that is sucks XX!

A better you will attract a better next

although i just seat on my bed for a whole day but things happened. i got a called from a friend who used to be my bestfriend. i got a text from a random people. i got another text from a person who likes me. i got a text from a person who i think i like him,im not sure and yeahh! today was going well. im listening to my favorite songs. im watching movies.The Italian Job, Sex and the City, Tangled and Despicable Me. im wasting my time just like that. today, you're the first person i talk to. you're the first person who text me. and you're the one who made me cried. what's up with that? i hate to see you like this. the time when you dumb me, i got nobody but now. when nobody around you. im here kiddow! i dont care what people gonna talk about me. please dont fuck with me this time.im not strong as you see. bye.

Im a Dreamer But Im Not The Only One

i saw the starlight, it was so beautiful and i chased it,

the starlight which is brought me some happiness

once again in my life time, i felt so happy

and there was an obstacle in front of me

who cares

i just follow the starlight

until one time

i felt bored with the starlight

and i left it

this is what im doing right now

im leaving the starlight.