Relationships end.... but feelings continue.

shit happened.

i had a choice to choose,

between this two things,

there are pro(s) and con(s),

i guess i made a bad one,

involve with other people,

tears no more

because shit happened,

im so unhappy.

*=(*

who's that girl? who's that chick?

i had a great weekend. Ada came here and we're having a last-sleepover for this year at Teeq's crib. as im remember, its been 8years that we're doing this. i mean the sleepover thing. every year since we were 14 years old. Ada  used to be a good listener. USED to, but now, she turns to nenek. i never really thought of herself as the blabbering type!faktor umur kot, haha!  Ada is the coolest person in the world but then, do not let her driving in KL. she will become worst. so funny :)  Teeq , never change. whenever or wherever she heard a music, she will dancing like crazy, follow the beat. that's her...

Teeq and i went to Puncak Alam, to see Teeq 's granny/cousin/aunt. meanwhile  Aqeel and  Ada  took my bf at Sunway. then we all met at Shah Alam. lepak-ing at mamak stall. both of them talk about cakes.  Ada gave me the cakes. sangat terharu ^^^. well, of course because this is unexpected thing. celebrating my birthday with them is awesome! here is my birthday cakes.

im twenty-two now, horeeyyyy!!

should i make 22 wishes??

i  WILLL !

 at KLIA before she fly back to Poland.

this is our MAMA :)

dont be sad  Teeq, we gonna see you next year.. insyaallah, your mama is my mama too. i'll try to take care of her. even im not you, we're sister right? love you.. 

smileeeee :))

hukkkkkk!! hahahhaa

sayonara lover.

The Happiest People

so true.. 

this is more me.

Paris by Lana Del Rey

I wanna be that fantasy that you got on your mind
Flying across the sea to somewhere that they'll never find
We should go out while we young
Cause one day we will wondering why
Our time in Paris
Take me to movies and salons
Paris, make out in a dark restaurant
Will dance until we die
Wanna go out every night
Promise we won't say goodbye
Take me to Paris
Let's go there and never look back
Paris, we can be crazy like that
You're such a naughty boy
Why you taking that polaroid
Put on a show you'll enjoy
Take me to Paris

love is a matter of chance

i think i was my first time i went to all the classes in a week after Hari Raya break. when lecturer asked me, why you didnt come to class? i told them bla.. bla.. bla.. and fuhhhh, succeed. seems easy right? not as easy as i tried to manipulate them and make some face expression. kalau masuk anak wayang ni, sure menang! haha.. but kids, please do not follow me. this is no good and i will never ever told my kid about this bad behaviour of mine. hows my study? since i miss the classes, im left behind but i do make some revision sometimes. so, everything just fine. yesterday, in circuit analysis class, madam did the revision about previous topic but i didnt come to her class. since i knew nothing, i just pay attention and keep my mouth shut. later on, she did some test 30 minutes before the class end. i was so nervous.. and im done, my friend behind asked me how to do this? using what method? how did i get this? .. so i teach her.. bla..bla.. bla.. actually i dont know either but i just try.. guess what? all my equations and the answers are correct.. tersenyum kejap. haha. just my luck :) anyway i need to study harder especially on basic electrical and physics. i dont know why they didnt like me..  mean while, i think i can handle on E.M wave. they say E.M wave is killer subject.. idk!

cant wait for tomorrow.. me and him have a secret plan on the weekend. i already google the place, the food  and everything. noted! even my boyfriend made some check-list. awesome. hopefully the things going well. weather please be kind to me... to us. let us having some .. what should i call that? a romantic moment? an adventure time together? a couple trip? a love for us? auww.. im so excited. i wont tell you anything until it happen. 

life is fair. life is karma. life is freaking awesome. i do have some-terrible-days. i do have some-bloody-hell-friends. i do have some-best-bestest-friends. and so on.. lately, things didnt go right as im wishing for and its goes upside down. i was loath, despise and my emotional unbalance. on that time, i was so mad as a hornet but i just see at the dark side. now, i feel free and happy. i still do have good people around me, the one that still cares about me, the one that i can rely on, refer to .. and they are my friends. my boyfriend not included.(kesian) haha. i used to think, why im isn't like her? why im not as beauty as her? why i dont have a boyfriend like her? why im not as brilliant as her? why im not wiser as her? (her is nobody) why?? why?? then i've found out that im glad to be me. even im not like her, i still have power to prove that im awesome more than her. first, i have a big family. too big to mention. second, i have my angels. both of them are very lovely. they can be as meow as a cat or Rawr as a tiger. i think im the lucky one. third, my boyfriend is like ayah. where to find someone like ayah? i wont tell more about him, i just wish, i hope he's gonna be my husband. fourth, my cousins. even though we rarely seen each other, we still keep in touch. but the most i love is Zydane. oh God! fifth, my colleague. i though i lost them all but the real is they all lost me. they still seeking me for advice. boyfriend matter, life matter or fashion.. this five element make me stronger and make my life happy and happier. basically, different people different life different opinion different taste and different problem. while you still alive, appreciate on what you have, be nice to people, positive thinking and enjoy the ride. lastly, what is your five element? are you happy?

this is priceless~ ~ ~

Our bond is extremely special 
It is unique in it's own way 
We have something irreplaceable 
I love you guys more and more each day

Random Memories

They say love takes time but yet,

It feels as if we've already met

It feels like we were meant to be

Together forever . . . You and Me

What God intended for you goes far beyond anything you can imagine

one week after Raya I went to Kuantan with Syakilla. we went to her soon-to-be in law house. the family was very kind and friendly. Syakilla's boyfriend took us to the beach, ate seafood and the best thing was, coconut shake. so delicious!! before we took off to Kuantan, we went open house og Syakilla's Aunt. the laksa penang was yummy. i ate twice!! haha.. well, im a food lover :)