Over thinking does kill your happiness.

Life is good
It's what I see that
Makes me want to disagree
I better leave, I better leave
I better not.

 

(silly boy by Blue van)

we're celebrate my 23rd birthday at Langkawi Island. actually it is last minute decision, like ... instead of USS why dont we go to Langkawi? lets buy the tickets and so on.. we stay at my uncle's house at Kuah. he gave us a car, lucky me i knew some of the places and beaches. *perasan* since minyak naik harga, semua benda pun naik harga. bus ticket rm48 one way. damn expensive! i remember last time it only rm40. but the bus is so exclusive..  thumbs up! 

everything was fine. perfect!

p/s : i still didn't get my birthday present. cant wait! 

Wish List Part I

ehem ehem...  even though my birthday is not around yet but  me already make a wish list for my birthday. this time i will not wish for something ridiculous. hopefully all this come true. *senyum sambil pejam mata* ..  1st thing on my list is  Urban Decay 24/7 eye liner. they comes in 40 colors and i love them all. i've tried it before (tester*), surprisingly this is the best eye liner i've ever tried. it goes smooth and stay put. the colors are very rich and unique. im dying to have all these eye pencil... i want them all !

Safety is inversely proportional to freedom.

did you know that, this week is a stress-hopeless-pressure week? no?? well... final exam has begin today until 15th of December. everybody look depressed, trying to memorize the formulas and the facts, while me listen to music while online, chatting, eating.. pretending  like nothing happen. very calm. i guess i've prepared enough. if something goes wrong, i'll just accept that. because i hate doing what they are trying right now.. last minutes study, doing the exercises and acting like they are the only person who seat for the final exam. my other colleague is playing game on Ipad. at least she and myself have something in common... we still breathing. time flies really fast.. this is the end of the semester and i still confusing in remembering my classmates' name.(kelas pun jarang datang.. memang lah!). i cant help it.. 

dealing with life is not easy as i told. explanation wont solve anything. choosing the right thing is another problem. its like you will going up or down, or hell or heaven. i heard my brain murmuring, this person is crazy. she didnt love herself because she is using her brain non-stop. she keep thinking and planing and rethink and re-plan and re-plan again.. until it stuck. dear brain, i wish i cant let all things go and i can go freely. having fun with my young-life. please be patient, one day it will fade away. i promise. *smile* 

its his birthday. who is he? my best man ever..i dont know what should i give him. question mark are everywhere, plus i have problem with money. im clueless.. until two day before his birthday, im trying to do something new. so i bought two shirts and did DIY shirt for him.. its like express-present. i made him choose one of the shirts but he is so greedy. i took both of them. one is Pororo the penguin and the other is I <3 font="font"> N. im glad he love it. since he didnt like cake that much, i treat him an ice cream, the best in the town. Happy Birthday Dear. 

to you loves, i didnt leave you both. im always here if you need me. stop saying that im too busy or whatever.. im just having a hard time, let me settle down my matter then, let us share our story and gossiping like we used to, okay.. 

i had enough. wish me luck, good bye

what can you do with time?

you give me butterflies
you smell like roses
you taste like strawberries

my birthday pictures part I. 

venue: Bagan Lalang

who's that girl? who's that chick?

i had a great weekend. Ada came here and we're having a last-sleepover for this year at Teeq's crib. as im remember, its been 8years that we're doing this. i mean the sleepover thing. every year since we were 14 years old. Ada  used to be a good listener. USED to, but now, she turns to nenek. i never really thought of herself as the blabbering type!faktor umur kot, haha!  Ada is the coolest person in the world but then, do not let her driving in KL. she will become worst. so funny :)  Teeq , never change. whenever or wherever she heard a music, she will dancing like crazy, follow the beat. that's her...

Teeq and i went to Puncak Alam, to see Teeq 's granny/cousin/aunt. meanwhile  Aqeel and  Ada  took my bf at Sunway. then we all met at Shah Alam. lepak-ing at mamak stall. both of them talk about cakes.  Ada gave me the cakes. sangat terharu ^^^. well, of course because this is unexpected thing. celebrating my birthday with them is awesome! here is my birthday cakes.

im twenty-two now, horeeyyyy!!

should i make 22 wishes??

i  WILLL !

 at KLIA before she fly back to Poland.

this is our MAMA :)

dont be sad  Teeq, we gonna see you next year.. insyaallah, your mama is my mama too. i'll try to take care of her. even im not you, we're sister right? love you.. 

smileeeee :))

hukkkkkk!! hahahhaa

sayonara lover.

You can learn a lot of things from the flowers.

the party's here

people protect what they love

keeping mummy busy is my expertise. she didnt know that we bought her a carrot cake. while sing birthday song to double Z, my brother shown up with another cake to mummy. she seem so surprise. mission accomplish! know what, this carrot cake is so delicious. no lies! and its only rm18.  murah kan?  dora is look like my little Zya while Zydane is crazy with angry bird. everything is about angry bird. i told them that im a good chef now. mummy ask me to make a breakfast tomorrow. that is scary, okay. mummy is superb. she is good in everything. i love her.

i wished for you

happy 22th birthday love

may our friendship last forever

may your dream come true

may your day be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter, love and cheer.

even though i may not be the first person who wish you a Happy Birthday, but i never forget the date. 

thanks for being the shadow of my life. 

i love both of you.

xoxo

belated

dear my lovely Yaya. im so sorry. how can i forgot your birthday. you're one of my best girlfriend. dont be mad at me. when im free, let me treat you something nice. okay? i wish you the best in your life, get boyfriend as soon as possible okay! be happy. cheer XD

You Could Crush Me, Please Don't Crush Me

you know how they say true friends are hard to come by? its true. and for someone like me, its even harder. and today proved to me the meaning of my best friends. not any best friends but mine.

they're some of the most beautiful people i know and you might not believe this but its true. its so amazingly true. they do not judge, they do not fret, they're not picky (sometimes depend on situation =P) and they take the best care of me. there two have always been there for me. and hopefully i''ve been there enough for them.

these two girls spent some time for my 21th birthday and we're forever making each other laugh. but the best part was, they're there with me. it was the fact that i realised these two people werent leaving . for once, i think i finally found friends i am completely comfortable with. i might not tell them everything but i do tell them most of it. and im glad.

so this is me thanking the one above for them. for my best friends, for my truest friends, for my companions, for my blabber mouths. for me one and only. thank you for letting me have the experience of having these people in my life. i have been truly blessed and i shall never forget that as i will never forget them.

they are my sky and my moon. one without the other seems so empty. but me without them would be a total catastrophe. so thank you, ALLAH, for the best birthday presents ever.

When your heart is happy, smiling comes a lot easier

now its 12.22am. im just done with season 3 ,The Big Bang Theory. how i love Sheldon Cooper's character. i really into his brain. if his brain is mine, for sure i can beat both of you. nice~~ this week went well. done with those quizzes, midterm and some assignments. wanna know my dirty little secret? i slept for 13hrs and go for the exam. my input is zero but lucky me, i can answers most of the questions.

so, im celebrate my 21th birthday bash at Penang with my best best best friends. everything went well as its planned. alhamdulillah. nobody as excited as i am not because it was my birthday but, the three of us went holiday together. time flies really fast. three months are over, she already back to the medical school while another one continue her new semester and i sitting in front of laptop, doing research for my final year project. i miss you girls.

these few days, i felt something is wrong with me. my physical is okay but the soul is unstable. i tried relaxing my mind my body but deep inside me cry out loud. im dying to cry as if i can, dont ask me why.. the harder part is, dealing with your emotion. since i have too many things to think, i just leave my emotion aside. so far so good. Allah is always with us. amin.

A 54 Years Old

yesterday was Ayah's birthday. my brother and i planned to surprise them(my parents) next week. im kinda excited to back home. i really wanna see mummy. i miss her so much.

Birthday Couple