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Ameen

saya bersyukur dengan apa yang saya ada sekarang, terima kasih Allah.

from Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah to my Aunt then to me and to you ,

Ya Allah bukakanlah untukku pintu-pintu kebaikan,

pintu-pintu keselamatan,

pintu-pintu kesihatan,

pintu-pintu nikmat,

pintu-pintu keberkatan,

pintu-pintu kekuatan,

pintu-pintu cinta sejati,

pintu-pintu kasih sayang,

pintu-pintu rezeki,

pintu-pintu ilmu,

pintu-pintu keampunan

dan pintu-pintu syurga.

ameen.

*doa harian*

26th Ramadhan

home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home. home.

Expect the best, plan for the worst, and prepare to be surprised.

i dont know why .. i just feel great with my alteration especially when i walk alone and nobody look at me or stare at me or do the annoying sound. i feel save. why am i wearing hijab? i cant answer that kind of question, but hopefully it will long lasting. pray for my goodness :)

Pushing my hard luck made my biceps grow harder.

here i am, at Produa Garage. woke up early in the morning, accompany my brother's girlfriend servicing her car. waiting is a boring job. i slept at the waiting area for almost 4hours. then we went to her collage and heading to Jalan Tun Abdul Rahman. i bought another Jubah. the price is lower than before because Hari Raya just around the corner. i like last minute shopping. well, my money is not enough to buy many things. *sedih*.

im kinda exciting for up coming Raya. i never as excited as this year.

Counting Days

i miss you girl friends

im going home this Friday

wait for me kids

Material Girl

lucky you Kelly Osbourne !

How Easy It Is To Confuse Happiness With Pleasure.

The Night Life

its 1am, i just back home. i went out with my brother.. again! he keep asking me to sleep at his house and i refuse. we went to chow kit road, lepak-ing and shisha-ed. with all his friends. too much fun till i felt so damn dizzy. i can see the starts around my head. wink3.

im going to miat tomorrow morning with him by train. He is visiting his site at Seremban. Train pun okay, brother. as long as im not alone.

Life Is Hard And I Will Kills You

i used to hate you and now i realize that i loathe you, i really do!

The Best Thing In Life Come When You Least Expect It

yesterday i went to Masjid India with brother. he picked me up at my Aunt's house, around 1pm. so hard to find the car park. of course it was weekend, of course people are going to buy things for Hari Raya. some people brought their kids, i dont know what they were thinking? because too many people over there, till you cant even move.so crowded, its like a traffic jam! serious dead! that was the worse part and the good part is, everything is cheap. especially hijab, baju kurung, brooch, shoes, handbeg and so on. lucky me, i went there with him. he brought everything for me. perfect!

around 5, we're headed to Sg.Besi. braking fast with his friends. i knew some of them and the others i dont even know their name. he introduce me to all his friend, this is my sister. i felt like protected and safe. i used to be alone with nobody cares about me. and now, i feel really good to have a brother like him.

he sent me back to my Aunt's house. then i went out with my friend.no-where to go and he let me choose whether going to cinema or eating at Kg.Baru. i choose none of them. then we went shisha-ed at this place. i always go there with my girlfriends. it really a nice place to lepak.

almost 3 am , im out again with my cousins. i accompany them sahur. these two girls are crazy bitch. we're share our life story, the good and the worst, the ghost story, the boys, love and many things. is quite fun hangout with adult. i like the way they're thinking and i realize that, saya sedang berpijak di bumi yang nyata. in reality not fantasy. i just smile :)

my life is fun

Things

.. and heartless

Forget Me Not

Spell The Four Words

.YOU.

she ask me not to hate you
but
she is my love,
i have my right to hate you
because,
some 'ungrateful' people doesnt know how to differentiate
between gold and glass
therefore,
they treat her so badly
i hate when people hurting you
like the previous one
well,
you are my love
i know you are so upset right now
i wish i were there
with you.

stay strong little girl.

Its Happened

My Attitude Will Always Be Based On How You Treat Me.

this book is quite interesting. if i find it, im gonna buy it for you T :))

Live A Simple Life In A Quite Town

.. especially from you. we talked and talked for hours maybe. time is ticking but we just ignore them, and keep continuing our conversation. since 'that'thing happened, im less-expectation on you, same goes to you .

just friend, just friend - Amy Winehouse

A Little Too Much, A Little Too Often, A Little More Everyday

after Communication class, i pack my stuffs and heading to Wangsamaju. when i arrived, Zydane seem so excited to see me.

him : kak babyyyyy...!

me : abang!

him : kak baby school apa? abang pergi school banyak-banyak. ada tulis-tulis,ada nyanyi-nyanyi.

me : hebat lah abang.

him : mesti lah, kak baby tidur sini ke? abang nak tidur dengan kak baby lah.

me : okay.

him : kak baby duduk sini lama-lama ke kejap je?

me : lama lah.

him : seronoknya. hehe

Treat People You Love Like It Was The Last Day They Lived

this is our first time we hangout together after three year in Miat. well, everyone were there except for the foreigner and Amy. we're having our buka puasa at Village View, Kajang. the food is average. if you notice , there only 4 girls in my class. the guy that wearing black baju melayu is our leader. his the one that arranged this event, booked the place,choose the menu and many thing. you're the best bro! everyone seems surprised when they saw me. they expect me wearing baju-yang-kurang-sopan (improper attire). i was attired in my best dress, dont you agree with me? ;)

The World Would Be A Lonely Place

we played, we fell and my ankle hurt. my friend said, i need to see 'tukang urut'. i know one of the best tukang urut in Dengkil. she used to urut my friend's ankle. im going to see her but i dont have time. i've planned to go to Jalan Tar this weekend with M. we're going to shopping baju raya but my ankle? *BIG SIGH*

Sometimes..

A Road Not Taken

Don't Play With Peoples Feelings If You Don't Want Them To Play With Yours.

Where Does The Good Goes.

my thirstiness is killing my stomach .. in silence. so, i bring a bottle of coke to the class. i didnt mean to show off that im not fasting but, i cant concentrate with empty stomach. sorry pal.

Everyone Thinks I’m Innocent Because I’ve Never Dated.

i couldnt sleep, though. i lay awake wondering why i always managed to upset people so badly. it must be my fault. i tried my hardest to please them but nothing i did was good enough. there must be something wrong with me, something horrible deep inside me that i couldnt change.

With Every HeartBeat

Just Another Kiss From You

its 5 o'clock in the morning. im going to shut down my brain. since tomorrow i cant puasa, my ex-roommate already prepared some food for me. hip hip hooreyy! nite lovers :)

Learn To Smile

Agree!

Choose It, Live It And Like It

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

Because Bad Decisions Make Good Stories.

now its 4 am, im done with the laundry. hanging all those at the window in my room while watching the moon. i thought im gonna use this weekend wisely but it not gonna happened. i slept at 7am and woke up at 4pm. at night i played rollerblade or sometimes badminton. then i got tired. too tired to study. how i waste my time so badly.

today i buka puasa with a friend of mine. i knew him when i were at APFT last year. he was on different company but we work under the same roof. i used to give hands to him when im done with my work schedule. he is a nice guy and help me a lot especially when i went through with the break-up-matter. and its been a year we didnt meet each other. the way he talk, laugh and the stories.. he hadn't change at all except both of us gain weight. his mom went to Macca and she bought me a Jubah. thanks Aunty :)

dont get me wrong. he such a brother to me with all his kindness, i feel protected. nicee

I'm Something People Don't See More Often

people say that i've been a very hypocrite when im wearing a hijab sometimes, posting goody-good status on facebook. but outside ... you know how i am right? i do enjoy wearing hijab and im wearing it not because others say i look pretty on that but i feel comfortable on that. i never mention that, 'hey people, look at me. i'm change now! im wearing hijab and cover all the part of my body.' i wont be like them, for sure!

We Can’t Deny How We Feel Inside

“Benjamin, we’re meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?”

—

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

Don't Worry Pluto, I'm Not A Planet Either

——-
Ya Rahman,

Jadikanlah aku instrumen kasih-Mu,
Di mana ada kebencian, biarkan aku menyebar cinta,
Di mana ada hati terluka, biarkan aku menjadi penghibur,
Di mana ada keraguan, biarkan aku menyebar keyakinan,
Di mana ada keputus-asaan, biarkan aku menyebar harapan,
Di mana ada kesedihan, biarkan aku memberi kebahagiaan,
Di mana ada kegelapan, biarkan aku memberi cahaya…

Amin Ya Rabbal A’lamin
——-

The Girl

I Will Survive On My Own,

i guess i don't need anybody .. here.. with me. when people ask me what is my problem, i cant explain to them what the 'things' is , its hard more harder when you're in between. fucked off this thing!

trust me so i can trust myself. believe me so i can believe in myself. love me so that i can love myself.

Ramadhan Twelve

i dont care what anybody says. i love Ramadhan. its the one month i feel secure. going to terawih (as if i just did on the day first), buka puasa with friends, cooking and made kuih with friends, fasting on all your bad habits. it sounds bad but it feels so good.

Success Isn’t A Destination, It’s A Journey.

last weekend i went out with my girl. after bought her 'stuffs', we went to book store because im looking for my book , unfortunately the book already sold out then i saw this book and the tittle catch my eyes to read. so i bought it.. i bought a book instead of clothe, amazing Alya!

I Did Tell, I Did.. is the incredible story of a girl who was betrayed by everyone who should have loved her especially her mother and her real father, and how she overcome the pain to find happiness and love, and to learn how to live with her past.

Feelings Change - Memories Don't.

went out with my sisters to Naili's ,Ampang. supposed to eat at Chow Kit Road but its all fulled! i skip the class. since i off to class. we went to get something to eat. so here it was. Nailis! even though the food not as good as certain places but i do love the surrounding. it really nice place. we taking dumbass pictures of our self. i haven't had that much fun since how long weyy. it was soo hilarious, with everybody staring at us. this is why i love my sisterss :)

Penakut - Yuna

Tak semua kau rancang kan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
tidak adil tidak adil baginya

kau tak penah cuba memahami aku
cinta kau ucap kau tak penah tunjuk
dan bila tiba saat aku kehilangan
beban yang tak penah kau cuba ringankan

Oh ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika aku mencintaimu juga
ini bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Bila bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Don't Come Back With An Excuse.

-vice versa -

Everything Turns To Nothing

Days Of Silence, Moments Of History

.. actually im screwed up.

Quite Strange This Feeling

by this time i was numb. i couldn't cry now. it was too bad for tears. i feel so empty and alone. i wish everything is just a dream when i wake up tomorrow. goodnight people T__T

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