Call Me A Name, Kill Me With Words

hmm.. there's this thing about life that makes me wanna keep going at it. even though i can fall real low, there just seems something about it that makes it worth it.at first,im give up for everything.i feel so down. i see so many people giving up and how easy it looks but i guess, it was just me to be the one for a challenge.

there's this thing i have where i dream of a situation and over expect from almost everything.i seriously have to learn to stop doing that.

i guess we just act to how we were taught. and the person who taught me happens to be someone bitter and uninterested in your feelings.someone who sees crying as being weak and vulnerable. someone who is never wrong and someone who you must not let down. and im still trying my best not to do it. not to let this person down.

but i guess because of this person,i am stronger when looking at life.i should try to not expect so much from someone or something. but everything i do from now on.will definitely be for me.i need that for me, just me.

Are They Destined To Break Up ?

Breaking up is hard to do.especially when we in long term relationship.here are some of 2010's shoking splits that i took from google.

Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgen.(4years)

Kelly Osbourne and Luke Worrall (3years)

Blake Lively and Penn badgley (4years)

Billy Ray and Tish Cyrus (20years)

Halle Berry and Gabriel Aubry(4years)

Christina Aguilera and Jordan Bratman(8years)

Charlize Theron and Stuart Townsend(9years)

Scarlett Johansson and Ryan Reynolds(2years)

Eva Longoria and Tony Parker(5years)

Kate Winslet and Sam Mendes(7years)

Tiger Wood and Elin Nordegren (5years)

and me

(2years)

35 Question in 10 minutes

1. Would you get back with your last ex if you could?

; i'm not really sure.

2. What color shirt are you wearing?

; white.

3. Would you kiss anyone on your friends list?

; yea. HEE

4. Do you have a 'thing' for someone on your friends list?

; no thing-thing. maybe a thing.

5. How many people on your top friends list do you know in real life?

; idk.

6. How many kids do you want to have?

; 5 or more.a big happy family wink3

7. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

; not really.

8. What name would you want besides the one you have?

; nothing whatsoever.

9. Would you ever make out with someone of the same sex?

; maybe.

10. What did you do for your last birthday?

; celebrate with my lovers,T & A.got a lot of cakes.eating burger in the middle of the night with y.

11. What's your main ringtone on your phone?

; hye ho lets goo.(Ramones)

12. What time did you wake up today?

; 3.25 p.m.

13. What were you doing two nights ago?

; webbie with T and i crying like a baby boo!

14. Do you like having your hair pulled?

; no. thts jst retarded.

15. Name something you can't wait to do.

; cant wait to back home.home sweet home.

16. Last time you saw your mom

; just now.

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself?

; the heart.i wish i can be heartless person.

18. If you had $250,000, what would you do with it?

; buy a ticket to poland.warsaw bebeh!

19. how long have you worked at your current job?

; job ? what job ?

20. Have you ever talked to Tom?

; aa-who ?

21.Describe the underwear you have on?

; striped gray and red.cotton.hahaha

22. Last thing you ate?

; ktiaw kungfu.

23. What's your favorite month?

; the month that t back home.thats my favorite.

24. Your least favorite month?

; november

25. What's the last piece of clothing someone borrowed from you?

; hmmm(?).no idea

26. Who is getting on your nerves right now?

; CB. alala no la. just kidding.

27. Most visited webpage?

; po.. ehh, facebook. pshht.

28. Last person you text messaged?

; private number

29. Last person to make you sad?

; Ummi Aida.just now i watch, Air mata Nur Salina.sumpah sedih!

30. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?

; hell yea.

31. Favorite kind of drink?

; 100+

32. Favorite food?

; mummy's food.

33. Favorite dessert?

; cendol pulut tapai.

34. Have you been to Europe?

; nope.

35. If someone you hated died, what would you do?

; give my condolences to the family, besides, i don't hate anyone.

I can’t hide a bad mood from people who know me well.

its been sometime now, since what's ever happened.and yet, things get harder by the day.im happy now.but once in a while, my head wanders off to where we were once standing.crying and shouting to prove ourselves. i miss so many and so much. my cries are silent for you.i wish i could tell everyone how mess my life now.how lonely i am.how crazy i could be. but nobody understand my silent. i might be slightly manic depressive but then again i might not, either way, i'm human.

Give and Take, but some take way more than they give

Bila Cinta

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Uuu…
Dalam harapan

by Filianti Vlee / Fili

Here's to another year of experience.

Days go by, weeks, months, then years

Memories made. Friendships created. Even some tears.

The people we meet. The changes in our lives.

The smiles and laughs. Our late night talks.

Paths cross and then split

But the memories made--we never forget.

Wishes made in the smoke of candles

Life flashing by as you try to get a handle.

Always know how to pull yourself up

When you've been pushed down.

Good friends that stand behind you

When you get pushed around.

Dreams of wonder--a rival of the stars

I hope you know how wonderful you are.

twenty years--such an impact you've already made

I hope all your wishes come true today.

to Y from A :)

♥ ..

:The Veronicas / Rebel Style

i adore this twin.they are so good in singing so do their style.

A road I Wanna Keep Going

yes or No ?

union jack & stars & stripes stude earring

belanja lah saya!!!!!!

Please Don't Think I Plan To Lose To The Night

i got 3 free ticket to watch Rapunzel 3D.who's in?

i went to miat this morning.nothing change.i mean my room still the same.i know u miss me too.dont worry,next year your be mine except we gonna get new roomate.freshie bebeh!i already send all my stuff to miat.the books,cloths,simple things,biggie things and i got nothing left with me.haha!thats all for today.

*this post sounds stupid.ohh well, i love you ! *

I feel like they know a part of me that most don’t

i miss my hair more and more when im looking at these picture.

i miss bun my hairdo.

i miss those curl

i miss binding the hair

i miss when my hair looks perfect

but

it is short now

back to basic,to the who i am

:)

Seriously ?

from : girl interrupted

Silence Would Rock My Tears

my parents is here, for a week i guess.maybe more maybe less.and you know what,Ashtromen(hamster) is here too.mummy afraid that kucing will eat him.so funny lah!tomorrow plan is,send all my stuff to beloved MIAT.then shopping.where?still in progress.dinner at uncle's place.my cousin having her 9th birthday party over there.

my sleeping schedule is upside down.what the heaven is going on?

because you forgot me.nobody else but me.you said somebody understood you better than me. you said she treated you better than how i did. and your reason was because you thought she was me.she's nothing like me and you know it. because im a bitch and she's too sweet.i only smile when i feel like it. she smiles all the fucking time.you were the only person i could manja with but you forgot that.you lost me.*the end*

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